I hate myself for doing this. It can't be that I get so fuck up some time.

Mostly it happens when I get drunk and than I lose control. I can't hold the anger back. I can't control myself and I do shit like beating up my best friend or hitting a very good friend.

Or worse.


This has to stop. There is no way I want to be like that. And there is no way I let myself be like this. This has to stop, no matter how hard it will be.


So no more drinking and more other outlets for that anger and aggressiveness.

James Stewart in a lovely film about the kindness in life.

I believe that some people won't understand this movie nowadays because in our society kindness has been lost in most part of modern western life.

But maybe I got to to pessimistic about the world lately that this movie touched me and gave me a good feeling so that I can sleep good tonight and make up tomorrow happy.

It has it's dramatic moments but there is a funny and so adorable side to this story that I really can't describe it. For me it is like watching the children of my cousin playing together and exploring the world, maybe you understand what I want to say.


9 out of 10

Quite an interesting film.

I have to admit I love Paul Newman. So basically it is difficult for him to make a bad movie.

It's an anti-hero movie. It is not an happy movie, althought I ended it with a good feeling.

It's wonderful played by Newman.

He plays a disappointed man that ends in jail, and tries to escape.

It's a look into the life of the unfortunet people back in these days. You will find yourself connect with them, dislike the "boses" and you will smile when they smile and you will enjoy their happyness.

9 out of 10

Look here: Click

Sorry that I didn't post much lately. To be honest, I was too tired to do.

And now I am drunk. But mostly I am pissed.

What do you do when you get an e-mail that just gives you the "shit, and this is my life"-look?

Well luckily I am drunk, so I have no clear mind, but we'll see what the next week will bring.

I will get my pleasure now, see you tomorrow.

Romantic Comedy you might called it these days, but in my opinion it's a little bit more.

The story tells us about a newspaper man that was divorced some time ago and his wife is coming over to meet him and tell him that she will marry another man.

It is mostly the dialogues that should be remembered. There is not so much situation comedy from falling people or anything, it is the people talking that will make you laugh and enjoy that movie.

8 out of 10

Look here: Click

Well it won an Oscar for best Short-Moive, so it can't be that bad.

It is not a very good story, and I honestly didn't like the all over storyline, but I believe it is not about the story, it is about the fact that everything in this movie is made from a logo from a different trademark.

It is worth a watch, nothing more.

7 out of 10

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I was a little bit disappointed by the end, but all in all you can say it is a good movie.

The story was, at least for me something new, and the acting was solid, not oscar or globe worthy, but not bad either.

To be fair, the real star of the movie in my opinion is the story.


8 out of 10

Look here: click

It was a small step, but better than nothing.


- learned about 2 and a half hours.

- spend 2 hours on the internet

- watch 30 minutes of film today

- spend 35,31 Euros (some "present" for me)


And now I will enjoy my little sleeping time.


And I am thinking about what I wanted to tell here, but I totally forgot it.

Due to the fact that some people might worry:

I am good.

Just listen to a beautiful desription of my happyness

Allright

I am making this list mostly for the simple fact that I have become a lazy bastard lately and I can't put up with any more excuse from myself.

And I want to show some ambition, because let's face it, I never really had one.

And likewise, I don't want to end like another of these internet trolls that lost the contact to real life.



So here goes the plan from monday on:


- 2 hours of playing time a day (anything multimedial)

- 1,5 hours of watching series, movies and so on per day

- reasonable hours of bed time (if necessary long "awake"-time is allowed but no playing until 6 in the morning)

- less drinking during the week (occasional drinking due to shitty days is allowed)

- drinking only on weekends

- sleeping until sundown prohibited

- spend less than 25 euros per week/120 euros per month tops

- start a sport (hardest part)

- 3 hours of reading or learning shit for uni :D

- eat at least every second day one hot meal

- update your blog at least once a week to see results

- use your calendar



Basics for the year:

- clean and improve room (repair the chair!! and install a normal light at your ceiling and maybe a curtain)

- save money for argentina and after

- renew your cd list

- watch at least half of the movies from the imdb top250

- learn more spanish

- build a smoker (for example)

- get a bachelor degree and graduate better than your a-exam

- talk to your best friends at least once a month

- be at your cousin's wedding

- get your story moving

- finish the present for your little sister

- learn the little instrument

- improve your bartender skills




Treats/Pleasures for this year:

- Chuck Ragan, March 12th

- my spanish girl visits in April

- Hot Water Music, June 13th

- KP2 - Adorf, July or August

- Taubertal Festival, August 13th til 15th

- Argentina, September 4th til October 11th

- Ivrea or Sweden (May or August)

- LAN in October

- KISS or AC/DC



So you know how to reach me, if I screw this up again.