Okay, got my PC back, without sound and windows keeps on bugging me about some registration stuff I can't quite work out, but at least I am online :)

The organisation for the week for the freshmen (so called O-Phase) is moving forward and I'm enjoying this, I feel like I am doing something not just sitting and waiting for death to come.

Sometimes I wish I could just work, just do my things I wanna do, just learn by doing, which I like sometimes a lot more than just studying, because it is so much closer to life than books.
I will take a practica, that's for sure, I can't just sit around for such a long period of time, I don't want to get nuts.



Sticking to getting nuts:

It's been almost 4 weeks and I still didn't get a response from her, that's something that worries me, but something ist telling me that I should put more patience in this and take a deep breath and that I am worrying way to much. Maybe she just didn't have time or something like that, sometimes I know I'm naive.

But there's this big fear of loosing that one thing I hoped so much for and waited for so long to happen. Honestly, this time I am not sure if I can get back on track as fast as before, this could really damage me, I know this is bull-shit but these are my feelings and I can't hide them.
I'm not used to such huge feelings, I am not sure how to deal with them.
I know weakness can become a strength but this time it's totally going in another direction, I'm feeling like a 12-year-old and not almost 11 years older (in 7 days ;( )

Allright, I'm waiting til tomorrow and than I'm gonna use the ultimative spionage tool at student can have (stas..vz /studiVZ , I still don't like it) and than I wait til my birthday and stop being sobber :D



btw: Try to imagine a perfect date?! Tell me about it :)

Flowers and a picknick seemed to be too simple ;)