How do you manage this?

How do you become so confident?

How did you turn out to be so You?



All I know I love you for that, I much appreciate talking to you almost everyday.


Don't change, just promise me you stay who you are, my big sister, my turning point on some pretty tough days, my mind whenever I'm lost.

I know you don't really like me talking like this, but this is me, you should know me by now and most important, you should now how to read these words.


I'll never forget this one day. Passau suddenly shined :)


Allright I'll stop here.

So I guess I must call, I guess I must call.


If I lose this one, if I don't get a chance I will turn gay, well I'm happy most of the days, but this time I think I'll become queer.


Damn this thing is killing me, so much thoughts that I turn out to become even more insane than I'm allready.


But the worst part of it all is that I haven't got any clue what to do with her. It's winter, so no sitting in a park and talking. But a café seems so wrong, so you know.


Deep in my mind I allready stopped to believe this whole thing with her is turning out good, it seems to me that I don't deserve her at the moment, that I might never will. Sucks but sometimes, really often to be honest, I think like this, I even started to believe it a couple of times.


All I know this is a hard time for me and I should put an end to it before it messes me up too much.


Life is about challenges, risk it, or beat it.








If only I could pick up the phone...