Life's a bitch. Everybody knows it but not all of us are willing to accept this.

My life is at a turning point right now, a really big one.

I decided to study. It was my decision to try this out and to it the way I want it.

And know I stand here in front of such a mess. I'm not really sure if I can fix this.

Honestly in the last 2 weeks I didn't think I could.

But today I decided to move. This is my last chance for a different life. I'm not sure how it will work out but I will give it a try.

I thought about not coming back. I thought about staying here in my room. Not caring for anything just letting it be. I haven't felt this much darkness since a long time but I needed to figure this one out on my own. I know you are all out there helping me, guiding me and supporting me. But this time it is me who needed to make the first step.

I might need you all to be there for me. Just be there. It doesn't matter where you are, just let me know that you are there.


P.S.: It could be possible that I just leave, don't be mad.