It is a lonely night and I am listening to wihspering whiskey drinking man.

I am dying because of nervosity and hoping that I get a sign, but there is not one. I am just being ignored.

Which is nice.

Because now I can stand in my own misery. Thanks a lot. I always get better when I am in this mode. I grow upon myself.

So let me tell you little miss something. I was not made for this. If I screwed up, than tell me but don't f. ignore me and leave me hanging. I know I am not the best guy in town, but hell I am a good man and I deserve being treated fair.

I know I made some mistakes and I am fine with accepting them. But I am not happy about playing games. I am too old for this shit.

Let's play with open cards. Let me tell you how I feel about you. I know I am a sensitive, emotional guy and that I can be a bit clingy. But most of the time it is only at bad times because than I feel lonely and weak.
When I am in a normal mood, I can survive almost anything. And I did. For many years. I survived all the bad things life throw in front of me.

And I will survive this. I am here standing and I won't back down before I want to.