Since 7 days I don't get to do nothing else than preparing for that big party that we geologist have every year.

It is for our patroness "Barbara" and it is always organized by the fifth semester and due to the fact that I am officially in this semester and a friend of mine and me are the only active members in the student section(?) it was our turn to do it.

Don't take me wrong I like working for others, organizing parties and support the people with alcohol, but mostly I like to give others a good time.

BUT this time the party should be different. It is not only about an evening together. It is not only about sitting with people and talk about geology or other stuff and connect even with your tutor, your professor or your boss.


It is about money. And therefore we need to do a lot of advertising, need to run around to get posters, flyers and personal invitations.

But mostly I hate the fact that I don't have time for anything else. For example in the last 4 days I spend 2 days until after midnight in my faculty to get all invitations done. And I was there mostly from 9 in the morning. So what do you when you come home? You eat and watch some episodes from your series and go to bed. Lovely.




Okay enough. I am good now. I really look forward to "catering" at the party and being done on friday morning around 6. And I know it will be fun.


And than I will hopefully find some time to get christmas presents. This year I can afford a lot. Thanks to some recent changes in my financial sponsoring. (to difficult to explain in english)

How music gives you a better feeling
(click me)

Feel so certain about all those things I do.

And than I feel happy about all the things I achieve.


I wanna have pancakes in the morning, open my door and see the rising sun. Take a deep breath and let the ocean take every little part of my lungs. My skin should be shivering every morning when I wake up.
A smile should be sent to the one next to me and all my friends would come for a visit and never want to leave.


It's a big easy ;( to make me happy.


Recently I had some worries about who I will be, after one night especially, but as it turns out, I am set for good. Nuances (?) will change, but that's it.

Me and university are getting along very well, I mean I will never do perfect, that's for sure, but I am almost as good as I could.


Yesterday I was told that a friend of mine is finished with her diploma. My congratulations. At times like these I wonder where all the time went and when we did stop to live a restless and careless life.
But that's half the fun. I believe in the end the goal is to be happy not only on your own but with others.


Switzerland doesn't sound so bad.

I am a bachelor of science, okay: I will be a bachelor of science.

For my bachelor degree I need to do a 6 week long internship.

Since a couple of weeks I decided to do it abroad.

And this is the tricky part. I want to do it in the States. In Colorado, close to my aunt. I mean the Rockies are close, so there has to be something. And I could save my accommodation.

But to get there and most important to be able to work there will not be easy. My little sister already warned me about the work that will come along with it.

To be honest I knew that, but since 3 weeks I am looking forward to do all this paper work, all this running around and getting something done.

I think tomorrow I will start with my aunt and ask her about the possibilities.

And than my big sister about the things I need to take care.


I really like this idea. It combines my wish to go abroad with something useful and a visit of one of my favourite places.




Oh, about the rest: Boring. Not much to do in an empty house. Sometimes it is very cold here and than I miss my friends and family.

Do you believe you can get dumb just by doing nothing?


Well, I known.



Enough hanging around, working and letting your mind be turned off. Tomorrow I start to pack my things from this apartment, and I will leave my first apartment for the last time on thursday.

Had some good times here, not so many female visits but at least I was comfortable here.

But honestly it is time to go. Fresh walls and fresh life. New people and a new bed.



Okay, now I need to think about some tails that came along with my movement, strange how I can't find a good woman here...


damn what a finish. ;)

I am doing good.

I found an apartment.

Nice people. 2 biologists. 2 dogs. A little bit more than 2 hundred euros. 2 years to go.


I need to go to the doc in the next days but no worries, I haven't got enough money, so I won't go until monday.

Don't ask me in what mood I am right now, I can only tell that I am confused. Maybe because of "The Prestige" I watched some minutes ago, maybe because of how things turned out in the last couple of days.


I am very happy about my new room, perhaps a little bit too happy, and I am content with me. I feel like everything will be allright, I don't need to worry about anything soon, it will all turn out good.






You know, I am not a person that listens much too news or what's going on. The reason is so simple, but probably not so easy to understand. I worry too much than. Honestly if I look at the world, I worry how this should all go on and when it all will end.

I simply can't bear it.

Friday was a good day.

Until...

I saw her again, the thing that's keeping my mind on it is that my mind is still on it. The way I see it, I won't be able to move on.

I can't figure this one out, maybe I am too young, maybe I am too much of a child. But still I wonder where this is leading if those little things keep making me miserable.




Friends support not let you hanging...

A bad day,

finally good,

but nothing worth noticing.

Just something bad.

Comprimiced it was something I didn't want to, but it happened, and it helped, at least a little, but the best part is still that I did have time to listen to music on my way to a despraid state, and that actually it made me feel better.

You know my troubles with the part of beeing here and not somewhere else.

But it's okay, I will finish my Bachelor Degree, and after that we'll see.