Finally it is time for me to write.

I can't say I was busy most of the time, some days I was, but most of the time I just forgot. I feel mostly sorry for myself because I still like writing and I still believe that it is good for me.

But like so many things disappear when you get older simply by the loss of time I lost my writing lately.

Anyhow.

I am here to tell something. Nothing special again, just life. Boredom some may say, but still better than death. Actually a lot. At least I believe, but who knows.

So my year started quite slowly, not a big party, just some friends and some beers. We actually just sat at home and played Buzz and than watched the fireworks and than went separate ways.
For me it was allright, honestly I wasn't quite in the mood to party and I didn't even realize that 2008 was over since february. The year just simply went by me.

Almost like these 4 and a half months. Something weird is going on with time. A week just passes by and you don't have any clue where it went. It wasn't qutie that obvious when I was younger, but now it really bites me.

In january I had some exams. Not really good. But later on that more. In february I was learning and doing shittie things at home. Wasted month. March was a good month. I did 2 days for the university on the open days for pupils. Was a good motivation for me. And paid good.
The last two weeks were great. I had an excursion to Hildesheim. Making a map of a small area. Field work they like to call it. It was a lot of fun to see all those things you learn in theory work together and making sense. Simply amazing.
To be honest my partners sometimes drove me crazy, but I survived them. If I could I would do that all the time and would still be out there.
It is work it is learning by doing.

And here comes the trick.

I made a decision some weeks ago. To be honest in my mind I was struggling a little bit with it for weeks, but on the day I made that decision I saw it all clear.


I WILL NOT MAKE A MASTER DEGREE.


I am not made for studying in that system. I learn when I do stuff. I learn the understanding when I can touch it, feel it, rebuild it with my hands and not only with theory, bullshit talking about how something looks like and not be able to see it.
I need things in front of me to understand them. I need practical work. I am not dumb, maybe in the last years or only months I did lose some braincells and some understanding, but I am definetly not too dumb to understand all the things people try to tell me in their classes.
But I am not made for exams, learning everything by heart and not being able to see it all fitting together. That is not me and that will never be me.


But after that decision what should I do with the rest of my life? I don't really know. First of all I want to finish my bachelor degree here and than see how good it was. And from that point I can see where I will go. Actually I think I allready know what the where part is.






Okay, that should be enough for tonight, I want to watch something and drink the rest of my beer.
But here are some little writen things from the this year. ;)

Allright. Time to write again.

I wasn't really in the mood to write something in here, mostly because there was nothing to tell. And there still isn't.

But, ah damned, I will write more tomorrow....I'm tired

The new year didn't really start well, but who cares. I am good, I had my fun. Not quiet a lot but anyway who cares, when all you have left behind is your friends.


2008 went by just as fast as a Toyota GT-One in 1999...


Anyway last year just was another year, nothing special, just living. Sometime in 2008 I realized that nothing you ever do is worth wondering where all the time goes. It is a very complicated question, but it is one of the really tough ones.


I often wonder how it could be possible that you could be int 2019

Since 7 days I don't get to do nothing else than preparing for that big party that we geologist have every year.

It is for our patroness "Barbara" and it is always organized by the fifth semester and due to the fact that I am officially in this semester and a friend of mine and me are the only active members in the student section(?) it was our turn to do it.

Don't take me wrong I like working for others, organizing parties and support the people with alcohol, but mostly I like to give others a good time.

BUT this time the party should be different. It is not only about an evening together. It is not only about sitting with people and talk about geology or other stuff and connect even with your tutor, your professor or your boss.


It is about money. And therefore we need to do a lot of advertising, need to run around to get posters, flyers and personal invitations.

But mostly I hate the fact that I don't have time for anything else. For example in the last 4 days I spend 2 days until after midnight in my faculty to get all invitations done. And I was there mostly from 9 in the morning. So what do you when you come home? You eat and watch some episodes from your series and go to bed. Lovely.




Okay enough. I am good now. I really look forward to "catering" at the party and being done on friday morning around 6. And I know it will be fun.


And than I will hopefully find some time to get christmas presents. This year I can afford a lot. Thanks to some recent changes in my financial sponsoring. (to difficult to explain in english)

How music gives you a better feeling
(click me)

Feel so certain about all those things I do.

And than I feel happy about all the things I achieve.


I wanna have pancakes in the morning, open my door and see the rising sun. Take a deep breath and let the ocean take every little part of my lungs. My skin should be shivering every morning when I wake up.
A smile should be sent to the one next to me and all my friends would come for a visit and never want to leave.


It's a big easy ;( to make me happy.


Recently I had some worries about who I will be, after one night especially, but as it turns out, I am set for good. Nuances (?) will change, but that's it.

Me and university are getting along very well, I mean I will never do perfect, that's for sure, but I am almost as good as I could.


Yesterday I was told that a friend of mine is finished with her diploma. My congratulations. At times like these I wonder where all the time went and when we did stop to live a restless and careless life.
But that's half the fun. I believe in the end the goal is to be happy not only on your own but with others.


Switzerland doesn't sound so bad.

I am a bachelor of science, okay: I will be a bachelor of science.

For my bachelor degree I need to do a 6 week long internship.

Since a couple of weeks I decided to do it abroad.

And this is the tricky part. I want to do it in the States. In Colorado, close to my aunt. I mean the Rockies are close, so there has to be something. And I could save my accommodation.

But to get there and most important to be able to work there will not be easy. My little sister already warned me about the work that will come along with it.

To be honest I knew that, but since 3 weeks I am looking forward to do all this paper work, all this running around and getting something done.

I think tomorrow I will start with my aunt and ask her about the possibilities.

And than my big sister about the things I need to take care.


I really like this idea. It combines my wish to go abroad with something useful and a visit of one of my favourite places.




Oh, about the rest: Boring. Not much to do in an empty house. Sometimes it is very cold here and than I miss my friends and family.

Do you believe you can get dumb just by doing nothing?


Well, I known.



Enough hanging around, working and letting your mind be turned off. Tomorrow I start to pack my things from this apartment, and I will leave my first apartment for the last time on thursday.

Had some good times here, not so many female visits but at least I was comfortable here.

But honestly it is time to go. Fresh walls and fresh life. New people and a new bed.



Okay, now I need to think about some tails that came along with my movement, strange how I can't find a good woman here...


damn what a finish. ;)