I guess you could call that thing here a placefiller ;)

Because I will try to write a new entry every day now and my writing mood is not so good I will just say

Good night

Back again, due to unforeseen circumstances.

The last weeks have been a real rollercoaster from happy to sad to angry to now a little frustrated. But let's talk about the way we got here.

Almost three years have gone by and not really much has changed. I am still me, which actually means: Lazy student trying to pass time.

I started my masters two years ago and I am now trying to finish it this year.

Back 2012 I went on a field trip with my former professor/boss to the alps and there was talking about a potential master thesis in Mexico. Long story short: I went to Mexico in february 2013 to do my field work there. I used this opportunity to meet up with my relatives in the States.
Those two months gave me a lot of smiles and happiness. Although I couldn't get any of this motivation into my workload I was quite content with the workload I got done in Mexico.

After Mexico there was a short trip back to Sweden to get the Okay's for our mapping project. Everything went fine there but the factor of getting work done didn't apply here too.

The months passed by and during that there was a students meeting where in the end our students ended up organizing the next big meeting in Goettingen. Of course I wasn't able to let myself go and agreed to help and ended up being the number one. There were a lot of people involded and we ended up hosting over 120 people at our faculty during four days in november. I was so beat at the end that at the end of it I just said to everyone "I don't care, leave me alone" and went to bed at the farewell party at 1am and slept for 10 hours straight.

In august I went to the international students meeting for geologist in Italy. Just freaking awesome.
What can I say? I met amazing people, mostly Slovenians and Italians because most of the Germans I already knew from our meetings in Germany the last couple of years.
Surely there was supposed to be a woman "problem". I had the pleasure of meeting two wonderful woman that had two different future settings if that's the right way to describe it.

One italian woman was a little bit over 30 and was in the settling down part of her life where she wanted to have kids, build a family, get a good job and husband and stay close to her family.

The other slovenian woman was 20 years young and in a "live life to the fullest, enjoy it everyday and think about tomorrow when it is there" - mood.

Both of them gave me such a good time just by being there and talking with them. As you should know me by now: Nothing happened.

I tried to get myself to do the next step but on the last night one of her friends crossed my plans and so I ended up being left with a simple goodbye-hug and a smile from the slovenian woman and no goodbye from the italian woman because we left before...

But this story gets better, see you tomorrow or even tonight if I am not coming home to late from work ;)

Hust...

I don't know if you remember me, not even I do. But I am still here, I am getting f.cking old and still have the same problems, aber but pero

I AM STILL HERE

Recapturing my life maybe tomorrow and going onwards.

I hate myself for doing this. It can't be that I get so fuck up some time.

Mostly it happens when I get drunk and than I lose control. I can't hold the anger back. I can't control myself and I do shit like beating up my best friend or hitting a very good friend.

Or worse.


This has to stop. There is no way I want to be like that. And there is no way I let myself be like this. This has to stop, no matter how hard it will be.


So no more drinking and more other outlets for that anger and aggressiveness.

James Stewart in a lovely film about the kindness in life.

I believe that some people won't understand this movie nowadays because in our society kindness has been lost in most part of modern western life.

But maybe I got to to pessimistic about the world lately that this movie touched me and gave me a good feeling so that I can sleep good tonight and make up tomorrow happy.

It has it's dramatic moments but there is a funny and so adorable side to this story that I really can't describe it. For me it is like watching the children of my cousin playing together and exploring the world, maybe you understand what I want to say.


9 out of 10

Quite an interesting film.

I have to admit I love Paul Newman. So basically it is difficult for him to make a bad movie.

It's an anti-hero movie. It is not an happy movie, althought I ended it with a good feeling.

It's wonderful played by Newman.

He plays a disappointed man that ends in jail, and tries to escape.

It's a look into the life of the unfortunet people back in these days. You will find yourself connect with them, dislike the "boses" and you will smile when they smile and you will enjoy their happyness.

9 out of 10

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Sorry that I didn't post much lately. To be honest, I was too tired to do.

And now I am drunk. But mostly I am pissed.

What do you do when you get an e-mail that just gives you the "shit, and this is my life"-look?

Well luckily I am drunk, so I have no clear mind, but we'll see what the next week will bring.

I will get my pleasure now, see you tomorrow.

Romantic Comedy you might called it these days, but in my opinion it's a little bit more.

The story tells us about a newspaper man that was divorced some time ago and his wife is coming over to meet him and tell him that she will marry another man.

It is mostly the dialogues that should be remembered. There is not so much situation comedy from falling people or anything, it is the people talking that will make you laugh and enjoy that movie.

8 out of 10

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